:: nothing in particular ::

:: Sunday, November 12, 2006 ::

Dear Friends and Readers,

It has been quite a while since you have seen me post anything here. It isn't that I don't want to, it is that I must not. These past few months have changed many things in my life, changes I didn't see coming. I have faced the destruction of friendships, the loss of those I care about, and the disgrace of being an "uneducated" man. I am also slowly finding myself put into more positions where I must protect and defend against things most people cannot understand. However, my professional skills and and abilities have been improving significantly. I am thankful for those who have believed in me and supported me to become who I am now. But, I've been asking myself more and more questions like, "What am I to become? Is this who I am supposed to be? Where will this take me? What am I gaining and losing? Who am I gaining and losing?" The answers to these questions have not been easy to come up with.

For the time being, my life cannot be documented in a method for public consumption. I exist behind the scenes, in the shadows, and in a world you might not be able to grasp. Therefore I cannot guarantee the frequency of new content here. It doesn't hurt to check in every now and then to see though. Have faith in me, continue to believe in me. I am still here for any of you, even if I might not be the man you remember. I have responsbilities to you, my friends, my loved ones, my employer, and my country, and I will continue to be committed to all.

:: Nick 5:43:00 PM [+] ::
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